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I’m not a lunatic-crazy fan girl of piers, I’m just a normal girl who feel sad after heard my idol is dead.
Why everyone say I’m freak and say I’m crazy?
I’m human too, I’m just…sad… Like that, losing someone u love is more painful than losing your doll, right?
And, I feel it, now.
i lost my fave idol, Piers, he is dead in unfunny way, till now, i still thinking about him, and sometimes? i think i’m just a living corpses, no hope to live again. i’m feeling like i’m losing my energetic soul and friendly soul.
part of my soul died with him, into a deep blue sea, a place when salty water found.
like my tears, it’s very salty, my hearts breaks very bad, like in hell, could be worse.
and till today, i’m still stand, even my body is like a normal teenager, but inside? like a living corpses, i don’t have any hope to live again in this world, this is too much for me, TOO MUCH.
i hope, one day, i could forget him, TOTALLY FORGET HIM, Piers’ favorite food, his mocap, his voice actor, EVERYTHING.
this tears will never and ever stop, never, everyone never want to cure my heart broken, i’m just acting, helping teacher, smiling, act like a moron and many more, but, deep inside my heart…
i don’t have any hope to live in this broken plastic world, when everyone rejects me, nobody loves me, it’s just an acting, act like a very over-imaginative teenager with wild imagination and very close to teacher not like others who trying to have a distance to our killer teacher in junior high school, it’s very me before Piers death, after his death, i feel like, this isn’t me. it’;s just an act.
i’m alone, very alone, nobody cares me, i’m just an idiot and human trash in every aspect, stupid, moron, and many more. even i cannot find my positive side.
i’m like walking in a very dark tunnel, no one give me a light, when Piers is still alive, i’m finally have my own torch, my own light, but when he is death, i don’t have any torch again, because my own is outages, i cannot find gas and fire to turn on the torch. because nobody cares about me, even my best friend just quiet. doesn’t want to help me to cure this broken heart.
this is me, a human trash.
I’m never talk to my family again, always quiet, this isn’t me, I love to talking, but now?
That’s why, I never smile again to my friend, even my family always say to me ‘why u never smile again? Something wrong?’
And, I never confess my feel about my Idol dead…
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